Self-Sabotage and Emotional Eating

So I hit a goal yesterday – and was dealing with a personal mini-crisis – and so what did I do?

Did I celebrate the goal, and deal healthily with my crisis by doing something healthy (I think a walk or swim would have helped tremendously), or did I go to the grocery store and purchase a bag on Turtle Chex Mix and eat the whole damn thing?

That’s right – I took option 2.

And what did I learn?

Option two does not feel so good.  Not even while I was eating it. I felt guilty, stupid, sick, annoyed, let down and disappointed in myself.  Now, I can’t undo that but I can and will learn from it.

My lesson: It is all mental. It is all up to me.  Allowing outside negative influences to bring me down does nothing to strengthen me.  And most of all - it feels like CRAP and I want to feel good!

I have learned in the last few months that I can really motivate myself to do things by imagining how it will FEEL when it’s done.  (Read Lynn Grabhorn’s “Excuse Me, Your LIFE Is Waiting!” for more on this…awesome!)  So now that I have wallowed in how it feels to choose an unhealthy response, I can choose something different and feel something different next time.

Eating today:

Breakfast: Milk, ww english muffin, peanut butter, banana

Lunch: Lean cuisine, salad

Dinner: (Turkey) sausage and peppers pasta

Exercise: My clothes are packed and in the car for my trip to the gym – dropping the kids off and hubby is cooking dinner, which should be ready when I get home!