Evening Workout

I implemented the new plan and I went to the Y after dinner and I walked around the outdoor track for awhile and when it got dark I went inside and finished my 4 1/2 miles. !!!!!!!!!

There was a woman walking in front of me and guess what she was doing? Go ahead. Guess.

…

SHE WAS SMOKING!!

I have no words.

What the fuck is wrong with people that they can’t stop smoking long enough to walk?

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There is a large area of the track that’s bordered by wild honeysuckle.  The first time around I don’t smell it. The second time around I notice it, and by the end of my walk it’s overpowering.  Do my sinuses open up that much as I exercise? What else am I missing?

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Small epiphany.

It was a bit of a battle to get myself to go to the Y tonight. It’s hot. I’m tired. It would have been easy to just hang out in front of the TV. But I looked at the clock, and I said, “I’m going to the gym. It’s better than sitting here feeling guilty and making myself not eat.”

And as I was walking, a thought came to me. “I must commit to myself before I can truly commit to anyone else.”

So there I was. Committed. Walking. Proving something to someone.

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There were a lot of people from another culture at the track. Families, grandparents, people playing soccer and people on the playground and people walking and running and women in sweats and women in their customary dress and people having fun. But see, I had a very difficult “friend break up” with a person from that culture recently and I had extrapolated my feelings about him and the situation we found ourselves in and projected them onto the entire culture. And I was muttering to myself some very unladylike, un-Christianlike things and I thought hey. You know what? Quit.  These people are not that person, and how can you think such awful things about an entire group of people based on one unfortunate situation? These people are playing, exercising, hanging out with friends and family and kids and they are happy and connected and have a culture, and it’s possible that you are a bit jealous of all that connectedness.

So. There you go.

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That’s about it.  It was a great workout!

Day 3, Cupcake

So it’s Monday.  I did not make it to the gym at 5 AM.  I WILL work out tonight when we get home – that’s why I have all these work out DVDs, FitTV and Exercise TV On Demand, right?

Right!

So I had a little epiphany this morning when I was beating myself up for not being perfect.

“You’ve only been doing this for 2 days. How can you be failing already? You have eaten things you knew better than to eat, you chose not to go to the gym, blah blah blah!”

And I realized – in order for this to work long term, it has to be a lifestyle change and it has to be made up of NEW, LEARNED behaviors!!

Now, when your child is LEARNING something, are they perfect at the beginning, and slack of as time goes by? No!! You learn from mistakes as you go and each day you get stronger and smarter and better!!

So why, with “dieting,” do I expect myself to be perfect from the first moment??

No wonder I get frustrated with myself!  I’m expecting myself to do it all backwards!!

Breakfast: English Muffin, egg, light yogurt, peach

Snack: Protein Bar

Lunch: Lean Cuisine, Kale

Snack: Protein Bar

Dinner: Chicken Salad Salad, Pita

WATER WATER WATER!

Supplements: Calcium, Multi-Vitamin, Vitamin B Complex, Hoodia

And, 2.4 lbs lost over the weekend!!!